o.O can't wait

impatience

"If you're going through hell...keep going!" ~Winston Churchill

"When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on." ~FDR

 It's the 4th year medical students' last day today! TWO MORE YEARS! TWO MORE YEARS! TWO MORE YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And now...drugs. O.o

 

AAAAA-HA! :D

Ok - I am PARTICULARLY horrible at "that's what she said" jokes, and as a tribute to how much I have improved, I give you THIS:

amanda:  Mike made the grid for me. I just looked up the data
         me:  wow
                  way to include ur main man 
amanda:  his skills far surpass my own 
         me:  that's what she said
                   THATS WHAT SHE SAID!

*BASKS*

mv

 m + v = <3

Juuuuust like I predicted the heart is WHOOPING my little booty around like it ain' no joke. :)

I find it fascinating though that my little butterfly of a heart keeps flitting through wondrous moments of my life, especially perhaps the best vacation I've had in a lifetime with my parents. For Spring Break we went to Hilton Head Island, SC. I could not have asked for a perfect moment to forget about medical school - the tumult of learning in school is really overwhelming, and I had honestly forgotten that the rest of the world existed while I tried to study it locked up in my cave! It was stormy towards the end, but worth every red sunrise! All I can remember is some of the best Indian food, mom giving dad and I "sand therapy," glorious shell collecting, studying the heart while staring at giant waves, and waking up to dolphins every morning!!!!! :)


Waking up to dolphins - 100's of them for HOURS all day!!!!!

Sunrise:

 















View from bedroom:

*dreamy*








Mom also put mehendi on my hands (henna) - in celebration of Navratri. I can't wait for my classmates to wonder what disease I have newly acquired:







 
So now I'm back at it again - plowing through the stenotic valves of my laziness and hoping caffeine will increase study volume and work output, when in fact all I need is a diuretic (the exam) where I can pour out all pent up knowledge about the marvelous muscle.


Except, I pause for a dose of humor:

grad-ness

     

white: As with the Pine Tree, 

the seed must now be planted 

and nourished to develop strong roots. 

 orange: The sun is beginning to rise. 

As with the morning's dawn, 

only the beauty of the sunrise is seen 

rather than the immense power.

Officially a color belt now! *whew* I got hit in the head 3 times with my new belt, and I now blame a potential concussion to my lack of studying in the past week. Also, one of my grad student friends sent me a very accurate depiction of what proper grad school is like:

And....epic...

i just killed....

...an exam with my bare pencil.

KILLED. 

I'm going to go bury it in the snow so that the blood doesn't haunt me, lest I become too arrogant.

To the heart - I humbly await you. May your four chambers keep me intrigued, enthralled, and in heated pursuit. I certainly never hope to fathom your twists and turns, your conniving laughs and gruesome sorrows - but I appreciate that you choose to grace my life with confusion and enlightenment.

Cheers - to learning about what makes you beat!

aka. CARDIOLOGY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :

                                                 And if the moment wasn't perfect enough already, 

  I received this in the mail,

love ABrierty-->

higgs boson

<3

study break

got dem lights poppin'
got mah brain rockin'
ink's fizzling paper
dynamite knowledge breaker

~moi, copyrighted yo.


I found this in my lecture notes, and thought I'd share. ;)

zzzzz

"study-nap: a state of attempted productivity characterized by cyclic head-bobbing complicated by a false sense of motivation eventually culminating in the inevitable 2 hours of neurological unresponsiveness, face-drooling-on-keyboard sleep which is abruptly ended by the "oh shit" response." ~Mallory

a parenthesis in eternity

Happy Anniversary Bebu & Petu :)

There's FIVE flowers now!  *squeee*

 In other self-related news:

Latest art fart:

you have been given a direct order to rock the fuck out

~Anis Mojgani

el flor

Today, a moment of joy happened. I didn't save anybody's life yet, nor did I ace an exam, nor did I win the lottery. My happy plant, that had gone into hibernation for a month, decided to bloom again. There's a cute little flower on it!!!!!! It had stopped blooming right before christmas, but I didn't expect it to come back so fast. :)

Keepin' my life medical-zombie-free one cheerful flower bloom at a time.

lymphangioleiomyomatosis

Ok, so obviously best friends think alike. I have a ginormous exam on the kidneys and urogenital tract tomorrow morning at 7:30am. So what am I doing instead? Bloggin' ofcourse! *skip*



I think the world should see some keywords that are supposedly "easy" to remember, so here is a fun *FUN* (enter sarcasm) list:

tram track
intimal thickening
basket weave
wireloop
spikes
subepithelial humps
mesangial immune complexes
thin cortex
fibrin strands
effacement of podocytes
crescents
ribbon like
linear
granular
collapsing variant
flea bitten kidney
onion skinning
acute suppurative inflammation
papillary necrosis (differences?)
calyces damage
fibrinoid necrosis
tubular atrophy and diffuse interstitial fibrosis
osteoblastic lesions
U shaped depressions?  (shruti can you remind me of what this was?  chronic pyelonephritis?)
nephrogenic rest

I would love to hear what you make of it...

Also, this was a random conversation I had with myself:
i wish i were as smart as my kidneys...
kid - ney
ki -dney
k-idney
kidn-ey-ay?

Last week I got to participate in an Ultrasound Clinic - I got to see that:
1. I may not have a right kidney (we couldn't find it)
2. My uterus may be slightly misaligned
3. My heart is as big as a ping pong ball - aka. extremely tiny! OMG - it was like a butterfly fluttering! :)
Overall, I would say that was my favorite experience this year, so far (it's January though so I shouldn't limit myself eh?).

Last, but not least, I applied for a bunch of scholarships. *crossed fingers & toes*

p.s. For those of you who eat hot dogs -->

what falls...

what falls on the side
of my soul

"i wanna speak at an intimate decibel
with the precision of an infinite decimal,
to listen up and send back a true echo
of something forever felt but never heard
i want that sharpened steel of truth in every word" ~Why?

"September.

October.

November.

December.

January.

Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me." ~New Moon

2010

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

stay hungry. stay foolish.

~Bill Gates

I still remember the beginning of 2009. I was in the Himalayas. I didn't even know when it happened. *heh* Gorgeous mountains have that effect on time. I recently found this in my diary; it was a quote I scribbled - I have no recollection where I found it. But here it is, in all its vain glory:

"My true self was never born, never ages and never dies. Yet to say that I will live for eternity is not true either, as it is utterly beyond time. Perhaps the closest thing would be to say that there is just this utterly unchanging moment, yet this also fails to hit the mark as it could imply that it is static which it is not. It is beyond static and moving. Thus before the world was, I AM. Not before the world, I was, but before the world, I AM."

the difference

On my way back from Houston, I met a psych doctor who was sitting next to me on the airplane. I asked him what the difference was between animals and humans.

He said: "The ability to cheat."

fear

aaah! t-16 days. I feel old, and feeble.