*fumes*

Damn...that dragon is hot.

From A Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy:
"The story so far: In the beginning the Universe was created. This has made a lot of people very angry and been widely regarded as a bad move. Many races believe that it was created by some sort of god, though the Jatravartid people of Viltvodle VI believe that the entire Universe was in fact sneezed out of the nose of a being called the Great Green Arkleseizure. (dudes...i SERIOUSLY just sneezed...freaky) The Jatravartids, who live in perpetual fear of the time they call The Coming of the Great White Hankerchief, are small blue creatures with more than fifty arms each, who are therefore unique in being the only race in history to have invented the aerosol deodorant before the wheel.

....And this computer, which was called the Earth, was so large that it was frequently mistaken for a planet- especially by the strange apelike beings who ramed its surface, totally unaware that they were simply part of a gigantic computer program. And this is very odd, because without that fairly simple and obvious piece of knowledge, nothing that ever happened on the Earth could possibly make the slightest bit of sense."

And o man, this doesn't make any sense, but I realized that friendship means more than anything. If it weren't for friends, we'd die trying to explain our lives to our parents, the difficulty level of which is similar to disproving the existance of The Great Green Arkleseizure to the Jatravartid's.

Friendship is when you can make fun of the person in front of you, and they respond with equal, and in some cases, even more brutality. And then we kill each other. :)

What a happy ending.

insane in the membrane

holy shig.

Definition of Shruti (apart from cosmic sound of truth)

"Insane in the membrane." -Solet

2063!

I was talking to Sandhya today...about whether or not I could handle three western blots at a time. She looked at me, took her index finger, and pointed to her brain. At first I was clueless...but then realized what she meant:

"It's all in your mind."

Thats the best advice I've EVER recieved. Everything negative I think about myself, absolutely EVERYTHING I do, is based on what I think about it, and how I thereby choose to act. My friend Steve asked me the other day how one should go about becoming mature. Perhaps it starts at rational thought. At thinking. At thinking about what is IN your mind, what you'd like to put there, what you'd like to discard, and on what you'd like to act. That's maturity.

O, and you may ask why 2063? Well, ITS OUR NEW YEAR!!!!! (according to the Indian calendar) :) So, HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!!!

IgA!

So, um, a long time ago, an experiment was done when two groups of people were exposed to different conditions. One group was exposed to happy HAPPY conditions, such as watching really really funny movies until their eyes teared up. The second group was exposed to sad conditions, watching movies that make you cry etc.

Well, IgA is an antibody that is secreted in general in all mucosal membranes, including tears. When scientists tested levels of IgA in tears of these two groups, they found that IgA levels were MUCH higher in the happier conditioned group than in the sad group. This whole experiment was designed to test the relationship between the immune system and the nervous system. So it showed that IgA immunoglobulin levels directly correspond to how happy a person is!!!! :D *EE*

I don' t know what you think, but I think I'm QUITE the happy person! Thanks SO MUCH IgA!

So if you're EVER feeling sad...pray...to IgA. ;)

butta'flies!!!

So I actually thought I was a smart person. But after how this semester's been going, and half of it is done...um, I'm not so sure. Apart from coursework, I've become horrendously weird, and haven't been speaking to people as much as I often do. And I really really don't know why!

Its like Shruti turned off.

I've decided maybe a haircut might change that. But I'm not so sure. Crud.

I feel like a butterfly. I'm colorful, but I've had my ups and downs, and I can't take anymore!!!!

Ecstatic about failing! :D

PChem test 1: 32/100 (class average, 36)
PChem test 2: 51/100 (better than class average...i was busy fainting and being shocked to check)

I am currently HIGHLY questioning my own ability to view my own score. I think I might have looked at someone else's score...because i REALLY REALLY thought I would get a 10! Maybe it was a typo...maybe its actually an 11!!!!

On another note, my mom found my FAVORITE nursery/grade 1 cartoon educational video that I used to watch while growing up in India. I cried. I REMEMBER IT! All of it! OMG...it still is my favorite. You may not understand it, because it is in Hindi, but you can tell what the basic jist is; that of the kids learning that there's one, and there's many. But that when many come together, there's power in it.




Abrupt end. :)

Planets! *pees pants*

Click on title for *a tour through the planets!*

OMG...I often find myself imagining how tiny, insignificant, and unimportant i am. That was a lower-case 'i.' oye....i'm like not even a quark compared to our solar system! ...maybe i'm a string (as string theorists propose)...but there's debate as to whether strings exist or not...so maybe in the context of the universe i don't really exist!

MY EXISTANCE IS UNDER DEBATE!

wow..i'm THAT small! seriously...and I thought a couple of feet of more 'tallness' would help..well here's to all the tall people:

YOU DON"T MATTER EITHER!!! *MUHAHAHAAHAHAHA* *devilish grin*

*holy crap* I don't think I know what i'm saying anymore. *eeehee*

Wish i were white AND nerdy! :D

testing beta?

Dreams of Jade

Life is....

Fantastic, wonderful, unpredictable, glorious, challenging, awesome, beautiful, full of love, and full of love.

I love life right now. Being away from some of my best friends has given me an insight as to how much I love and miss them. I miss Amanda most of all. Everytime I read her blog, my eyes tear up, and my throat hurts like HELL. *haha* Why does that happen? Physiologically...WHY does the throat hurt so much when you want to cry but don't let yourself? *thinks deeply*

I also got to go to the University of Michigan this weekend! OMG. It was AMAAAAAZZIINNGGG. I'm pretty sure if I got accepted there I'd go in a nanosecond..correction...picosecond! (except if I got 'accidentally' accepted into Mayo or Johns Hopkins :) ) I have finally realized that my passion has always resided within me..and I'm glad I doubted my motives/future. I doubted whether I should pursue MD/MD-Phd. But now I'm sure. I want to be a doctor. No amount of persuasion could change that. MD-PhD is 80% research, which leaves barely 20% to clinical experiences/patient care. I love research. But seriously, if I wanted to do research, I'd have decided a long time to pursue a PhD instead. Why spend 8 years of my life devoted to research with a 'clinical' setting..I'm pretty sure a PhD alone would let me do that too. But I've always loved patient interaction..and a pretty humongous part of me now wants to think about pediatrics..It'd be awesome! And I LOVE kids! *swoons* :)

I'm going for the MD.

I feel so enlightned. So inspired by my struggle to reach this far. This week was Navratri, an indian festival where we spend 9 nights praying and celebrating with our Gods. Its in moments like these where I realize how unique I am. I love my culture, my religion, but I also love the other religions I've been exposed to..christianity. And I cannot live without Science. I have a religion/faith of my own. I love my family, and I love my friends. I couldn't live without this moment. So I'm really glad it happened. What took so long? Life is a challenge.

And I can finally dream of space...dreams of Jade.