When love beckons to you, follow him,
Though his ways are hard and steep.
And when his wings enfold you yield to him,
Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you.
And when he speaks to you believe in him,
Though his voice may shatter your dreams as the north wind lays waste the garden.
For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you.
Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.
All these things shall love do unto you
that you may know the secrets of your heart,
and in that knowledge become a fragment of Life's heart.
But if in your fear you would seek only
love's peace and love's pleasure,
Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love's threshing floor,
Into the seasonless world where you
shall laugh, but not all of your laughter,
and weep, but not all of your tears.
Shiv: What if someone named their pet Lupus? Joe: Or any other disease - "Here Duchenne" Me: I had a friend whose cat was named AIDS Joe: (after a lot of laughter) That's our new band name. "A cat named AIDS"
p.s. Watch out for our talents. *cough*
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
oh when i wake up these days
i feel i'm gonna die
nothing makes my soul feel alright
there's no comfort in my life
oh how i loved you so
guess how i loved you so
i had to let you go
oh how i wish i was dreaming
cause i feel i can't survive
the nightmares fill my mind
i always wake up screaming
oh how i loved you so
but i had to let you go
oh i how i loved you so
i just thought i should let you know
oh how i loved you so
but i had to let you go
oh like this dying season
i had to let you go
oh like this dying season
i had to let you go
i had to let you go
Shiv: "You know 'lupus' means wolf? I had my gmail status message set to 'lupus, the myTHIcal wolf.'" Me: "You mean Lupin? Like in Harry Potter?" Shiv: "Is he a wolf?" Me: "Yeah! He's a WEREWOLF! That makes me appreciate Harry Potter SO much more!" Shiv: "WOW...that impresses you? Not the fact that Lupus devours tissues like a wolf?!"
Shiv: "OoOoooooOOOh! the COSMIC SOUND OF TRUTH! I'm going to make one....The Cosmic Sound of Lupus!!!!"
It won't stop! Shiv: "What does dino in dinosaurus mean?" Me: "I dunno...BIG?" Shiv: "No way, then there would have to be a microsaurus!"
(btw: Deino = terrible; sauros = lizard --> end result = dinosaurus! *AAAAAH*)
This past week while I was studying for my ID exam I noticed a big daddy longlegs on my windowsill, and he/she was trying to climb up and down the wood panel in front of the window. I watched it in wonder - the shaky thin legs, the intent and motivation to get up there, the sheer existence of such an elegant, beautiful creature that most likely feared me more that I did it. Before all of this I had noticed it over days - flitting up and down on my loft walls, and I would watch it and think "let it live."
To think I had that sort of power in my hand - how dare I make such an assumption? Who am I to let a bug live or die? Why I thought of myself as morally superior for "letting it live" brings me to understand how ignorant I am of the things I understand about life.
Just now, I see it near the panel of wood on the cement base of my windowsill - dead. Its beautiful legs are still just as elegant when not moving. To think I could even remotely influence its survival is beyond me. Arrogance and ignorance - a daddy longlegs taught me to be humble today. I hope I'll remember tomorrow.
1. Obama won the Nobel Peace Prize! Holy whoas! I completely understand that "whilst" he really hasn't done anything "concrete" I commend the Nobel Peace Prize committee for not overlooking his vision and upholding the tremendous shift in "hope" that he has raised in a very very short time! It takes a great personality to do that. Although at the same time, I think maybe, just MAYBE other candidates might have deserved it more. Just because the committee supports his vision or cause doesn't mean they overlook the qualifications of others. Is that favoritism? But aren't all awards favoritism? Hah! Look who's talking.
2. NASA bombed the moon. "If the true intent of the LCROSS mission moon bombing is a hostile act by NASA against known extraterrestrial civilizations and settlements on the moon, then NASA and by extension the U.S. government are guilty of aggressive war which is the most serious of war crimes under the U.N. Charter and the Geneva Conventions, to which the U.S. is subject. The U.N. Outer Space Treaty, which the U.S. has ratified, requires that “ The moon and other celestial bodies shall be used by all States Parties to the Treaty exclusively for peaceful purposes. The establishment of military bases, installations and fortifications, the testing of any type of weapons and the conduct of military manoeuvres on celestial bodies shall be forbidden.” 98 nations have ratified and 125 nations have signed the U.N. Outer Space Treaty." Source: HILARIOUS.
3. A few goats fainted upon reading the above statement.
4. This is the page I'm staring at right now, and it's cracking me up. To continue the thought on the next page "The other pathogenic kidnea bean is Neisseria gonorrhoeae, who is a pervert (notice how he is displaying the latest center-fold pin-up.) He enjoys hanging out on sexual organs and swimming in "sexual fluids." He causes the STD gonorrhea." ~Clinical Microbiology made Ridiculously Simple
5. derk: classes were 6-9pm inside the old chem building
me: when you got to learn you got to learn!
derk: it was horrible, lol
me: i spent 4 years in that building!
i'lll probably die from MacCrackenosis
derk: that building sucks derk: probablly derk: ill diagnose your death
6. Sadie gave me highlighters! Life is GOOOD when you have highlighters! :P
7. Bioethics conference this weekend in Traverse City. THEN ID EXAM ON MONDAY! *goat faint*
I woke up with the power out,
nothing something to shout about.
Ice has covered up my parents hands
don't have any dreams don't have any plans.
I went out into the night,
I went out to find some light.
Kids are swingin' from the power lines,
nobody's home, so nobody minds.
I woke up on the darkest night,
neighbors all were shoutin' that they found the light.
(We found the light)
Shadows jumpin' all over the walls
some of them big, some of them small.
I went out into the night.
I went out to pick a fight with anyone.
Light a candle for the kids,
Jesus Christ don't keep it hid!
Woohoo! Woohoo! Woohoo!
Ice has covered up my parents hands
don't have any dreams, don't have any plans.
Growin' up in some strange storm,
nobody's cold, nobody's warm.
I went out into the night,
I went out to find some light.
Kids are dyin' out in the snow,
look at them go, look at them go!
Woohoo!(3x) WOO! Woohoo!(3x)
And the power's out in the heart of man,
take it from your heart put in your hand.(hand)
What's the plan? What's the plan?
Is it a dream? Is it a lie?
I think I'll let you decide.
Just light a candle for the kids,
Jesus Christ don't keep it hid!
Cause nothin's hid, from us kids!
You ain't foolin' nobody with the lights out!
Woohoo!(2x)
And the power's out in the heart of man,
take it from your heart put in your hand.
And there's something wrong in the heart of man,
Take it from your heart and put it in your hand!
(hand!)(the lights out!)(hand!)(right now!)(hand!)
"There once was a sage who lived in a lonely temple high in the mountains. He was visited one day by a wandering monk. As the two were talking a wild animal roared close by, and the visiting monk, supposedly Enlightened, jumped. "I see it is still with you," said the sage...referring, of course, to the instinctive "passion" of fright. Shortly afterwards, while he was unobserved for a moment, the visiting monk inscribed the Chinese character for the Buddha on the rock the sage was accustomed to sit. When the sage returned to sit down he saw the sacred Name and hesitated to sit. "I see," said the wandering monk, "it is still with you!" ~ (Attributed to one of 1700 Ch'an and Buddhism related kung-ans of the Ching-tech'uan teng-lu compiled during the Ching-te Era. The oldest and most influential of the "Transmission of the Lamp" (teng-lu) texts. Compiled by Tao-yuan of the line of Fa-yen Wen I (885-958).)
"My true self was never born, never ages and never dies. Yet to say that I will live for eternity is not true either, as it is utterly beyond time. Perhaps the closest thing would be to say that there is just this utterly unchanging moment, yet this also fails to hit the mark as it could imply that it is static which it is not. It is beyond static and moving. Thus before the world was, I AM. Not before the world, I was, but before the world, I AM." ~Anonymous
A few artists elicit wonder in me, Al Magnus is one of them. One question: If all clouds had a rope attached to them, what would you do?
The usual 8am tomorrow! yay! Maybe I can steal a piece of the sun and store it for winter. For now, the stars are waiting. :)
Me: "Sadie, ECG and EKG are the same thing right?" Sadie: "Yup" Dr. Jeff: "What's an ECG stand for?" Me: Electrocardiogram Dr. Jeff: "EEG?" Me: Electroencephalogram, for brain activity. Dr. Jeff: "EGG?" Me: Electrogastrointestinogram? Dr. Jeff: "Egg!!!"
Conclusion: Take advantage of gullible med students.
Today's muse: Wake Up by Arcade Fire
Somethin' filled up
my heart with nothin',
someone told me not to cry.
But now that I'm older,
my heart's colder,
and I can see that it's a lie.
Children wake up,
hold your mistake up,
before they turn the summer into dust.
If the children don't grow up,
our bodies get bigger but our hearts get torn up.
We're just a million little gods causin' rain storms turnin' every good thing to
rust.
I guess we'll just have to adjust.
With my lightnin' bolts a glowin'
I can see where I am goin' to be
when the reaper he reaches and touches my hand.
With my lightnin' bolts a glowin'
I can see where I am goin’
With my lightnin' bolts a glowin'
I can see where I am, go-go, where I am
I am a medical student in pursuit of the cosmic sound of truth. I am originally from India, but have travelled all my life and have learned to respect and admire various cultures of the world. My family is my core, and my friends my existance.
